It’s so hard to make a decision because I don’t know what my heart wants right now. I’ve been thinking about joining for the last few weeks and I’ve yet to come to a conclusion by now. I know that in the state I’m in there no possible chance that I would be able to make it because of the skill gap from high school to college. I’m scared that I won’t “fit in” to the UH marching band because my lack of skill will pull everyone else down and the last thing I want is to be a burden on anyone. But even then this is all on the slight possibility that I do make the auditions for bass that takes place in a couple months. I worry that I won’t make it and my pride won’t allow me to play cymbals for any band. I know that if I truly want it I would need to put the time and effort to get myself prepared. It is alot of work and honestly I don’t know if my effort would be worth it. It would be easy just to give lame excuses and tell myself that it was for the effort. But I tried taking the easy road before and that got me no where in life. I can say from the bottom of my heart that I am afraid of the unknown. I’m afraid of not being able to meet the standards I put up for myself. Or is it, I’m just afraid to fail?
I had to reblog this even before I made it halfway through.
omG GOD BLESS
Truly, too epic for words
Fucking amazing
omq
(Source: thenintendard, via anordinary)
